I know I blogged this a lot of times already and we always get back together. But I think now, it`s real. It`s been two days since the break up and we never broken up for that long well except for the incident last year. He`s not even contacting to me. Usually when we break up and it`s just because he was so mad, in just a span of few hours he will come back to me. But it`s already two days.. I guess it`s really over.

I did him a favor, I was the one who broke up with him because it was the right thing to do. He`d given up already but I still chose to force him. For 1 week before our monthsary, we were just together because I don`t want him to leave me. I broke up with him because it was really hurting me so much, for him not having any time for me because he was studying. He`s not doing any effort anymore because as what I said I was just forcing him, he doesn`t want to be with me anymore and his love for me was slowly dying. And he really wants to focus on his studies but I was interrupting it. Nasawa na siya sakin.

It really got complicated when he studied there. Maybe if it was in Mapua, I wouldn`t have to bother his studying time cause we`ll go home together. We`ll see each other often and the love won`t disappear.

He doesn`t want me back, I`ve asked him yesterday and earlier this day when I was tipsy! :)) He rejected me. Not really rejected. I was just asking a question not literally getting back with him. I asked him if he really doesn`t want to come back, it was an experiment but his answer did hurt though.

I HATE IT. I can`t move on. We had so much memories. I love him too much, isn`t it obvious? Aigoo. I don`t know. I hope I`ll forget soon.

This is really goodbye, isn`t it? :|