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 Asian ; Filipina 18 years of fragility. This has been up since 2008. Rants of LOVE, life & whatnot. Affiliates
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Saturday, July 31, 2010
7:02 PM
I don`t know what`s real or what to believe anymore.I thought everything was okay now. He just promised for me to stop. To stop bothering him from his studies, for me to shut up. For me not to be hurt. ... I experienced a one of a kind and most heartbreaking moment in my life. He cried and pleaded.. for me to let him go. T___T Angels cry
Thursday, July 22, 2010
7:58 PM
We`ve broken up the day after our 11 monthsary. :| I know I blogged this a lot of times already and we always get back together. But I think now, it`s real. It`s been two days since the break up and we never broken up for that long well except for the incident last year. He`s not even contacting to me. Usually when we break up and it`s just because he was so mad, in just a span of few hours he will come back to me. But it`s already two days.. I guess it`s really over. I did him a favor, I was the one who broke up with him because it was the right thing to do. He`d given up already but I still chose to force him. For 1 week before our monthsary, we were just together because I don`t want him to leave me. I broke up with him because it was really hurting me so much, for him not having any time for me because he was studying. He`s not doing any effort anymore because as what I said I was just forcing him, he doesn`t want to be with me anymore and his love for me was slowly dying. And he really wants to focus on his studies but I was interrupting it. Nasawa na siya sakin. It really got complicated when he studied there. Maybe if it was in Mapua, I wouldn`t have to bother his studying time cause we`ll go home together. We`ll see each other often and the love won`t disappear. He doesn`t want me back, I`ve asked him yesterday and earlier this day when I was tipsy! :)) He rejected me. Not really rejected. I was just asking a question not literally getting back with him. I asked him if he really doesn`t want to come back, it was an experiment but his answer did hurt though. I HATE IT. I can`t move on. We had so much memories. I love him too much, isn`t it obvious? Aigoo. I don`t know. I hope I`ll forget soon. This is really goodbye, isn`t it? :|  I love you so much, Jerome Valencia Aquino. I wish you`d come back but it`ll still be complicated, right? Maybe not now or maybe never. Who knows if we still have a chance? I`m still hoping as long as I love you. If you came back then maybe it`s really meant to be, if not then I guess I have to forget you. Aigoo. TT_TT It was..unusual.
Saturday, July 17, 2010
4:53 PM
I visited him again yesterday due to our postponed field trip. It was tiring and different. :|What we`ve done? We ate, talk and walk and walk and walk. It was different because of a lot of reasons. For the first time in our relationship, we ran out of things to talk. He changed a lot. We were sitting at the Freedom Park, it was like he`s there but his mind was somewhere else. I was pissed off because we weren`t having any physical contact to each other. Okay, pardon me we were that couple ya know. I mean there`s no fckin people and he can`t even hold my hand? Unlike in high school, we are so One thing that strucked me was his words. He said, "Did you just come here for that?". OMFG. I was gobsmacked. I was like punched straight to my face. WTF, I wasn`t like this before. One thing he didn`t realize why I`m like that is, I really miss him and all. I was longing. I was deprived. When I got home, he said he wanted to hold me but there were too many people. For God`s sake, we walked at a dark , long path with only two or three people passing by is that what you call TOO MANY PEOPLE? WTF. Did I just really became a maniac? It`s like he`s from the province and he`s conservative and I`m studying in Manila and I became liberated. That`s what happened. I so loathe myself. I became a maniac. I wanted to kiss my boyfriend. IT IS IMMORAL! *sarcasm at its best* Or it`s just.. everything really changed? And I should go with the flow, pretend it`s okay. Love 100%
Monday, July 12, 2010
8:19 PM
Aigoo. No time to blog. I`m so busy with my life. Midterms week. :| What I`m dealing with.. and other subjects. I want to pass!   I just want to share my 1st sleepover experience. GAAHHH. After so many years, I was allowed to come. Hurrah! I really had fun with my friends, I miss them. :|  July 12 - 15 : Midterm exams. July 16 : Field Trip July 24 : Tree Planting Activity at Batangas. |