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 Asian ; Filipina 18 years of fragility. This has been up since 2008. Rants of LOVE, life & whatnot. Affiliates
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Nobody told me it would be easy
Monday, May 24, 2010
7:18 PM
Love.Love has kept me busy for 9 months. The ratio of pain and happiness is 2:1. Sometimes, I wish that I should`nt have let myself fall. I want to give up, I want to end this pain. I really want to yet I can`t. I tried ignoring, I tried telling myself this isn`t worth fighting for but it just all comes up with one answer. Everybody was right. At first, it`s overflowing with happiness but as your relationship goes on it`s slowly losing its spark. That`s the fckin truth. He asked me, what happen to us? I asked him, what happen to YOU? It`s not us, it`s only you. I don`t know if I`m making any sense right now, I just want to write everything I feel. This being-apart made my love stronger and had tested my patience. I wish it could happen to him also but I can only wish. I am not really at ease right now. Although, I trust him there`s this feeling that maybe he`ll fall for somebody. My mom said, "Sa umpisa lang masaya pero sa huli nawawala rin yan. Nakakasawa lalo na pag may mamimeet kang iba." That strucked me. Because that`s a fact that I`ve been trying to ignore, trying not to believe in, fooling myself that it`s not possible. I don`t know when will I give up, but I can feel it. Sooner or later, this will be over. :( I`m so tired of the pain. Whenever I tell him to tell the truth, when he already said the truth then my reaction is bad he will take it back. Tell me, how to know what to believe in? I`m lucky if this will last a bit longer. This is the problem of being apart, they may suddenly get used to the idea of living without you. That`s a sad fact. But.. I can`t live without you. My all is in you. |