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Sunday, January 17, 2010
3:53 PM
I feel a lot of emotions today. Take note, a LOT. Helluva of emotions.Bold words are the emotions or whatever. Ha ha. First off, I woke up at around 2 in the morning because of call of nature. Haha! I had a hard time going to sleep, I almost slept about 4. Woke up again around 8 or 9 coz I thought the UPCAT results are already published. Sleepy. O.O Yesterday felt so surreal. I really failed ACET. I-was-expecting-it-but-God-knows-how-much-I-wished-for-it-to-not-to-happen. I`m really nervous about the UPCAT. Who doesn`t want to pass on this prestigious school, right? Negatively speaking, I`ll fail it. I know, I don`t want to have my hopes up. So that ends me up on CSB or AC? GAHHH. I`m scared I might fail the BEE, because the exam was hard! All the exams I had were purely guesses. I mean it. I suck at Math and Science. The only thing I answered were the English and Reading parts. Obviously, I passed AC. But I don`t want to study there! I can`t imagine myself studying there. No offense to Assumptionistas. Mom said, I could change my course. But that`s not the point, I don`t have my heart on that place. I want to be a Benildean, I don`t care if they say "bagsakan" yun. What matters is, their quality of education on HRIM. February 8, come on! I already want to know where will I allot another four freakin years of my life on studying. Lol. BORED. No one to talk to. He`s not online. :| I really feel butterflies on my stomach. Har dee har har. I`m nervous for tomorrow. Probably, my adviser will be present and she might talk to me this time. ARG. I feel dirty. :( Like I did some horrible thing, which apparently is really really mistaken. Thanks to that old hag! Excruciating pain. My ass. :)) What will you feel when you`re every move is like watched or something? Supressing your freedom and all. It kinda sucks. Oh, scratch that. It sucks, bigtime! I don`t want them to have another word to say. Or any of the people around me. But I still think, they still have those hidden skanky thoughts about me. God forgets and forgives, why can`t you? Instead of lovey-doveying we just scream, hurt each other. Haha! Or have a boxing match, right honey? This makes me want to roll on the floor. This really bothers me every-freakin-day of my life. No offense to them. I have nothing against my friends, as I`ve said before I understood their point. What bothers me is the teachers. Yuuuuhhh. I can`t just forget the pain until now. What freakin gossip have they implanted on their mind? But I really felt hurt. When I told Reena and Kat about that incident. Like I already know what their thinking. Siguro iniisip nila, "totoo naman e." Based on their reactions. Sorry guys. I just felt that way. It`s not easy on my part. Good thing, when I`m with him. I tend to forget everything. Irritated. My mom won`t stop bombarding me questions about college and Jerome. For example. "Where will he study? "Did the two of you passed in UP?" "What did his parents say yesterday?" "Where is he?" "Where will YOU study?" GEEZ. Hahaha! Another emotion is bothering me, but I can`t talk about it. Not yet. This has been pretty long. Kayy. Ta ta! |