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 Asian ; Filipina 18 years of fragility. This has been up since 2008. Rants of LOVE, life & whatnot. Affiliates
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Monday, January 25, 2010
7:36 PM
I said last night was the last entry, but I can`t help it.It was very hard to do that, dropping your friends. On the positive note, I felt freedom. I was supressed all along. I don`t want to be a hypocrite but I do miss them. It just gets hard because they don`t accept my decision. I thought friendship is never one-sided, so why can`t they understand that I have to do this? If they were the one who will drop me, I will respect their decision. They are just too good for me. I can`t go with their expectations. This is what I had become, and obviously they can`t accept it. Also, they have a problem with my boyfriend. So I guess that`s the main reason and I can`t do anything about that. It was bound to happen. Yeah, it really is. My mind is still on the whirlpool mode. I admit I feel every bitterness and resentment in my system. But still, that won`t change the fact that I can`t continue the friendship that we once had. I am just so tired. Tired of everything. Pagod na akong makisama. Tired of trying to please them. Tired of trying to save this friendship. I know they are tired too. RLY. I never had a bestfriend or treat someone like that. It was never a choice nor an option. I just have to give up one, cause I can`t have both. All I`m asking for is just forget everything and respect my decision. I want this closure to be mutual and without hard feelings. Is that too much to ask? KTHNXBYE. |