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So long
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
7:50 PM
..It`s been 19 days since the breakup. Yeah, that`s how pathetic I am. I made a countdown. I promised myself that this will be the last day that I`ll be bitter. XD I want to forget him, really. :D I hugged him kanina. I felt.. nothing. No spark or fireworks yadda unlike when we`re still together. IMPROVING! :D I sent a text message to him, dramatic again. LAST NA TALAGA YUN! I don`t know but the love is slowly dying, all I`m feeling is hate. I HATE HIS EXISTENCE. I hate how he compares me to her. I hate how he talks to me like nothing happened. I hate him for being so insensitive. I hate him. Period. This past few weeks I`ve been pretentious. Pretending I`m happy? Pretending it`s all okay. But I get to think, bakit nga ba ako bitter?! I`m the one who left. I`m the one who ended it, hindi ako yung iniwan. But how he implies na iniwan niya ko. FCKOFF. Siguro dahil, all this time niloko niya lang ako. Yun yung kinakabitter ko, hindi yung siya yung nang-iwan. Pinaniwala niya akong I`m the one he really loves, na ako lang talaga. At nalaman ko ang mga kagaguhan niya break na kami. Sooooo, hindi ako ang loser dito. Siya ang pinakabobong cheater, hindi man lang nagbura e. HAHAHAHA! Sabi nga ni JP, hindi niya alam kung ano talaga ang love. :p Ako rin yung mali. I confessed TOO early. Hindi siya nanligaw. Wala siyang pinatunayan. Ewan ko, sa sandaling panahon. Nabalewala niya lahat. Yung mga sacrifices ko, yung mga pinagdaanan namin. I was there when he suffered dengue, I was almost on the brink of insanity akala ko hindi siya gagaling. I became patient kahit lagi kaming nawawalan ng oras. EWAN KO BA`T GANUN!? What the fcking hell did I do para mawala ng ganun, sa isang iglap lang boom di ka na niya mahal. I don`t know kung nung kami, totoo lahat ng sinabi niya sakin. Parang lies lang lahat e. Unfair pa, grabe yung mga paghihirap niya dun sakin walang kaeffort effort e. Pero pag sinabihan ko siya okay. Wala siyang pakielam kung may napatunayan ba siya nung kami. Siya lang yung ex kong ganun. Yung iba kong ex, kahit may iba na sila. Pinipilit parin nilang minahal talaga nila ko blablahh ayaw parin nila akong masaktan. Siya. Wala talaga, insensitive. Kahit masaktan ako okay lang basta hindi yung bago niya. Kahit mamatay pa yata ako sa harap niya okay lang e. Ganun siya ka sama. Ganun siya ka gago. Ganun siya kawalang kwenta. Sobrang nagsisisi ako kung bakit minahal ko siya. I love him super and it hurts sooo much. T_T I feel good. I just want to let it all out. Last na. Move on. Slowly.. Sasampalin ko na talaga yung sarili ko kapag di tumigil sa kakaalala at kakakwento. Ibabato ko yung phone ko pag nagtext ako sakanya. Haha! GM lang pwede at kung importante pwede naring PM. Hahaha. GOODBYE ASSHOLE! Hahaha! Bitter eh no. Goodluck. Lalo na sa room ayaw ako tigilan ng mga nilokong issue. SINONG NILOKO? SINONG BITTER? HINDI AKO! =))))) |